believe me, not this time.

I'm tired. i do everything you want. everything.

but what i got now? YOU SUCK, DUDE!

I don't fuckin live to chase you.

eat that goddamn promise.

I Hate You!!

1st

Supposed to be our day.

But ya, i realize it's not again. You said you won't help me ryt?

Yaya, it's okay. i can't even tell anyone. i'll keep this alone.

It's my fault. everything is my fault. no one care. no one can help me.

it's okay. totally. even for the gift.

did you know i've been working for your gift all day long?

but it's okay. it's fine. everything's fine.

i can face everything with my own self. and oops i forgot something.

without crying.

:D

too much problem.

Sorry.

Dear M,

I'm so sorry for being THAT stupid. I know it is all my fault. you can put the blame on me.

I shouldn't say yes when my heart say no. I'm outta control.

Where's my feelings? my heart? I don't know where it goes. I don't know.

Sorry for being selfish, I know you're mad at me. I know you feel so furious. And maybe this time you will never forgive me because i always act arbitrarily. And ya, i accept that.

You're good enough to found someone better than me. You're perfect.

I'm so sorry if you feel played, but i just can't walk on with you while my heart's not with you.

Maybe i'll stay single for a long long time. And for the man who stole my heart, please give em back. idk why, but everytime you hurt me, it doesn't make any sense to my heart. You know i never felt this way before. GAAAAH i feel bad :(

SMARTASS!

I'm back.

Dear young kiddo who admit himselfs loud,

I got your point. After everything we've been through, after i'm living in your arms about 7 months, after you tell me about your life and secrets, after you share anything with me, and now you call me SOTOY. lol. And wait, you don't even say sorry HAHAHAHAHAHA I GOT IT.

I'm so done.

I'm following the path of your mind, and guess what? IT WORKS!

We're still friend, well ummm... smartass friend :D

Your (fake) Feelings

Girl: Your new girlfriend is pretty.
I bet she stole your heart

Boy: Yeah...she is.
But you're still the most beautiful girl I know.

Girl: I hear she's funny and amazingg.
Everything I wasn't.

Boy: She sure is.
But she is nothing compared to you.

Girl: I bet you know everything about her by now.
Like you knew everything about me.

Boy: Only the stuff that counts.
I can't even remember half the stuff she says because I'm too busy thinking of you.

Girl: Well, I hope you guys last.
Because we never didn't.

Boy: I hope we do too.
What ever happened to me and you?

Girl: Well, I gotta go.
Before I start to cry.

Boy: Yeah...me too.
I hope you don't cry.

Girl: Bye...
I still love you

Boy: Later...
I never stopped.

i still wonder, what is the meaning of Love? is 'it' really exist? or it just a simple word that anyone can easily spell it?

If you still faking your feelings, then you'll never get what you want.

XOXO♥

I'm staying. not for you, but for my friends.

By the way, i still can watch and see you from this distance.

Take a good care :)

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Stacy Ann Ferguson (born March 27, 1975)

Hey fellawssss! In this post i would like to know how cool she is.

Her name is Stacy Ann Ferguson,maybe you can hardly know her. She's known well as Fergie.

I don't know why but i really adore her. She's so talented. Fergie is an American fabulous singer, song-writer, rapper, fashion

designer, and actress. She is the female vocalist of the hiphop group the Black Eyed Peas, with whom she has attained much charting success worldwide. Whoa, the point is she's so amazing and stunning. That's why i really love her!

Live your own life, past.

Today,

I woke up with mixed feelings. I stuck with these feelings for a moment. and starting to realize that i miss you.

I know last night was a mistake. i shouldn't ask you to help me because of my carelessness. But hey, you know me. I'm still the silly-stupid-careless-selfish-sloppy-weak-dumb girl as before.

I ain't see anything different on you. To be honest, i miss you. really miss you.

Yes I do. but this is just my temporary feelings because this is kinda weird, we used to be in this situation before. But the different is now i'm not yours. I just sit there and answer your important question. Not for share my day like i always do, for crying out loud when i feel fear. and ya, you know our thing when we're in this situation.

I said this not to come back with you again, really. I just can't handle this strange feelings.

I'm happy with him. Practically happier than i'm with you. He's got everything i want and i just can't live without him. Sorry.

Find someone better than me like i do. find another one that can make you happy like i do.

And please, live ur life. don't ever bother us. i begged you for this one.

I have my perfect life with him, and believe me, i will never never ever come back to you because no one can separate me and him.

Take care,pal :)

Hello!

It's like 2 a.m in the morning. but i still up and watching world cup. it's been 3 months since my last post. miss me? ofcourse!hahaha i have tons of story about my life during this 3 months. but the school thing is ruin everything.

And hey, i have a boyfriend. his name is Airlangga Julio♥ simple called Angga.

Angga is a nice,funny,kind,and loving person. for me, he's not just a boyfriend. he's like my bestfriend,my brother, my father, and also my little boy.

Its been 2 months since we're together. many wonderful event we spend together. we share anything each other. the thing is, I love everything from him.

Thanks for being nice bib, thanks for your patience, your tenderness, your huge hug, your sweet kiss, and everything.

I Love You!

SUPER SWEET 16th!!!!!

Hellawwww Fellas!!!! This is Irnintha speaking..... Well well in this post i would like to share my story about my 16th BIRTHDAY hihihi :) this year is soooooo rock!!! you will never know how much i love my friend. and in this year i would like to give a BIG BIG BIG THANKS to my dear GOD,Allah. thanks for giving me a perfect life!perfect family,perfect friends,and perfect boy hihihi. So let's hear it.....

26 FEBRUARY 00.00

*TOK TOK* someone was knocking my room's window. and guess what??? there's a man with his cupcake with a candle on it. and yeah right he's my x. hihihihi same as last year,i still can't tell u guys who he is. cause you know why ryt? hehe. the point is, i really really happy to have you in my life :) hmmm dilanjutkan dengan sms2 yang masuk ke hp ku ohya! first sms is belongs to Kimbar. thank u Bar! and also Thankyou for texting me in the middle of night ya semuanyaaa.

Morning

whoaaaa! nothing's happen. and then someone knocking my door *knock knock*

I: "siapa?"

A: "Ayah,ta"

then i opened the door immediately.

A: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETY" he hugged me.

I: "WAAA thank u,yah. hehe"

A: "you're sixteen now. i can hardly believe that. i feel like yesterday u still wearing ur topi cicit haha. (FYI,topi cicit is my fav hat when i was a little girl. and i really take care of that. haha! it's like my lucky charm. haha silly!)

I: "hahahahah me too."

A: "hahah ohya, i decide to go to rumah eyang and to ambasador. i want to bought you a new laptop as ur gift. do you have any plan?"

I: "hah?enggaaa! aku engga ada rencana kok"

A: "okay then. kita berangkat jam 11 ya"

Afternoon

Me and my family is going to rumah eyang. and Voila! eyang is always gaksante then he and she hugged and kissed me. And ofcourse gave me her and his gift. too sweet he wrote some letter,writed by him self and i can hardly read that because his handwriting is like cakar ayam or something ahahha. buat i really2 like it. thank u eyangg :) and for the gift, he gave me some money,not 'some' sih hahahaha.

After lunch,me and my family going to Ambasador.singkatnya ayah bought me a new laptop. and i really2 love it!!hihi big thanks for my super daddyyyyyy!!!

Evening

i'm on my bed. yawning while tinkering my new laptop. Suddenly my lil sist opened my door and cover my eyes with some sarung. wheeew and i was like "woy apaansih?lepasin gak?apaansihhhhh" and then she lead me to walk with her while my eyes's still blind cause of sarung in my eyes.and yep, i still scream like "eh gak lucu woy lepasin gak" hahaha. and then when she uncover the sarung in my eyes.... i'm in front of my house and guess what??????everybody is singing "HAPPY BIRTHDAY INTA!HAPPY BIRTHDAY INTAAAA......" and YAAAAA!!! everyone is stoning me with telur,kopi,tepung,sasha hair color,dll. what the!!!! AAAA I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!and there's dara with cake texted "HAPPY B'DAY Inta" AAAAA and when i look around,my house is soooo crowd!! there's dascouder,emerald,crs,rbl, and the others. WHOAAAA i recently realized that i had a lot of friends that really2 care of me aaaa i really2 love you guyssss.

and then after everyone is 'ceplokin' me, i decide to clean up my body with all of this disgusting stuffs. then everyone is waiting me in ruang main while my big brother ordered some pizza. after i finished cleaning my body, me and my friends go to dining room to have some dinner. we had a lota fun together!!! hihi

Night

me and my friends is still at dining room. eating,sharing,laughing,and joking. And then i heard girls's voice singing "HAPPY BIRTHDAY INTA...HAPPY BIRTHDAY INTAAA!!" so i running to the door. and i saw my pretty dancers friend singing with her "kue lapis legit" with candle on it hihihi. THANKYOU DANCERSSSS I LOVE YAAA!!!

okay everyone is in my house. and i can't stop smiling because i really2 happy to have them in my life. it's such a perfect day for me. family,friends,my boy,and everything!!! aaaa i guess i'm the luckiest girl in the world.

Hmmm everyone is go back from my house is about at 10. and i decide to tinkering my laptop again.

23.00: "zzzz" "zzzz" my handphone is vibrating. it's a sms from Marvin.

"intaa intaa keluar dong"

whoaaa and i'm like "what now? aaaa i really love my friends"

so i go to outdoors and YEAAAA there's ririe with a cake and candles,marvin,and bang ilham,bang made. AAAAAAA i'm sooooo happy!thanks for comin guyssss :)))

i directly blew up the candles and make a wish. then we share a lot of story in front of my house. we had a lot of fun together hihihihi :) then at 00.00 everybody is go back to home. and so am i hehe. I PROMISE TO MY SELF THAT I WILL NEVER FORGET THIS DAY. I LOVE YOU ALL!THANKS FOR UR WISHES. I'M LIKE THE LUCKIEST GIRL IN DA WORLD TO HAVE U ALL. ONCE AGAIN, THANKYOU!!!!!

27 February

whoaaa. today is saturday and I'm very lazy to do any activity because I'm tired. but the situation urged me because there's some LTUB tournament. and with forced feelings I went to school to participate. first, I came and everybody's especially my classmates was like "ciee intaa, happy birthday ya" but after that, there's nothing happen. until my class' turn to perform.

After my class' turn, we did some review and my seniors was like "lo tau gak tadi jelek banget! woy komandan yel-yel, tadi tuh yel-yelnya ancur banget" fyi I'm the yel-yel commander or known well as 'komandan yel-yel' I realize that the yel-yel was bad and I feel like it is all my fault because everyone's blaming me. plus, kak anto, one of my seniors is very mad at me because he said like "tadi juga pasukan 45 ada yang ketawa-tawa. ketawa lo tuh kedengeran sampe 1 lapangan!" (shit I just realize the one who's laughing is me) and I'm getting worse. the situation worsens, everyone really mad at me. and without me realizing it, I'm starting to cry as well. and suddenly, there's someone who bring the cake and it's written: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY INTHA" with candles on it. my cries gets louder. everyone's laughing and said they're just teasing me. AAAAAAA THANK YOU SO MUCH PSIKOPAT AND KAKAK SPARTA!!!!!! I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH. THANK YOU FOR TEASING ME! AND ALSO FOR THE CAKE:)

So, this is my birthday this year. so colorful and fun. I hope I can still have a birthday next year. thank you for everyone who remember my birthday. this is my super sweet 16th and I promise I'll never forget it. THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!foto2 menyusul yaaa hihi

xoxo, Inta

just write what's on my mind

Hey fellas!

this is me again. sitting in front of my laptop.listening to Daniel Bedingfield-If You're Not The One.alone.blank.confused. there's alot of trouble that really bother my mind,but hey i'm fine.totally fine.

and the thing that really bother my mind is Maybe i'm not in an official relationship.but i still have you.You always here beside me whenever i need,always know how to make me feel better,always attempt to protect me from danger,share what you have with me,pick me,cheering me,always be patient when i'm on pms,listen my complaints and everything that can't mentioned one by one.How can i say i don't love u????

hmm actually not as happy as you think.there's always problem between us like example,your girlfriend.hhhhmmm quite yucky to discuss abt it.

sigh... i think thats all. just fyi,i love being like this hihi

♥xoxo

2010 <3

First posting in 2010:

"عيد رأس السنة!!Get a new life :)"